today i'm feeling like this '-' (this is a happy-excited-cute face!)

BEEPS BEEPSS
For once, i drove w/o engine stalling and so smoothly till my instructor fall asleep. Whenever he doze off, i wld wake him up by tapping on the brake so the car wld jerk lightly. HAHAHA. Damn fun to see his shock expression and abt-to-pull-up-handbrake look. During the smooth drive, a car (obviously female driver, not being a sexist here) was waiting to turn right. When she sees me approaching she just swerved right, cutting into my path! It's like WTF, the 'L plate' doesnt mean i have to slow down and let u pass. Anw, it was green light on my side and my right of way. Luckily i hit the brakes fast enough. Then robert was like alrdy pointing finger at the lady! HAHAHA, so hilarious!! I swear today was the best lesson ever.

WHY MUMS SCREAM?
Have u thought abt the WHYS behind this qns?
-ponders and ponders
Ok, let me have the honor to analysis this tricky qns.
i've reached an agreement between my left and right brain and the answers are below, in no order of preference.

1. they are afraid they cant be heard, not loud enough
2. outburst of emotions (menopause?)
3. they still think tat da shi teng, scream is LOVE (translate to chinese)
4. they scream to do a vigorous workout for their lungs
5. seeking attention and stand out in crowd

FACT OF THE DAY
90 percent of women who walk into a department store immediately turn to the right.

ok i m done for today.
ohya, this is a "got length but no depth&width post". (i'm the one with width lar, che. LOL)
haa. Am i right che? '-'


Right now is gloom to bloom, rather than bloom to gloom. I wldn't deny tat i'm getting better. In the past, we hang on cos we presume tat as not losing our most precious. But it might not be the case. Could it have been just habits? company? pride? I dont have an answer to it, mayb u do. I still give myself excuses to stumble back into the darkness whenever loneliness struck me. Memories swarm back and pierced my heart, looking at past photos doesnt help in soothing. But the bottom line is, i know i'll get up from this shit. I wont pray for strength from god, help from family or even consolation from close ones. Cause, i know i'll bounce back on my own.

i gave my blessings, with sincerity.


i can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
that don't bother me
i can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
i'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
even though going on with you gone still upsets me
there are days every now and again
i pretend i'm ok, but that's not what gets me

what hurts the most was being so close
and having so much to say
and watching you walk away
and never knowing
what could've been
and not seeing that loving you
is what i was trying to do

it's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere i go
but i'm doing it
it's hard to force that smile when i see our old friends and i'm alone
still harder getting up, getting dressed, living with this regret, but i know
if i could do it over
i would trade, give away, show the words that i saved in my heart that i left unspoken


april sums up to many new beginnings. .
the start of BIG 2 (which is hell in life)
religiously took driving lessons with robert every wk
picking up random books which kept me occupied
awaiting for the letter which nvr seems to come
scouting for new job half-heartedly thou
a diet and exercise regime ._.
stop reminiscing, i did fucking tried to

YOU lied that u wont leave
i lied that there is forever
partners in crime,
we lied in this together